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Dedication

This book is dedicated to my sister

Lisa Marie Feranna’s life.

RIP

For those who feel different, estranged and like the misfits of society, may this book show the world that we’re all the same.

This Book Contains…

Cover

Dedication

You’re Probably Wondering Why I Invited You Here

Chapter 1

Look Thru My Cracked Viewfinder

Interlude

Life’s Not Always Beautiful

Chapter 2

Ghosts Inside Me

Interlude

This Is War

Chapter 3

One Man, Two Bands

Interlude

Killer’s Instinct

Chapter 4

Help Is on the Way

Chapter 5

Tale of the Siamese Twins and the Black Rose Tattoo

Chapter 6

Rock N Roll Will be the Death of Me

Chapter 7

The End, Unless It’s the Beginning

Credits

Copyright

About the Publisher

 

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YOU’RE PROBABLY WONDERING WHY I INVITED YOU HERE

So here we sit again, pen to paper, heart in hand, me whispering softly in your ear as I prepare to take you on another journey. Last time we were together in The Heroin Diaries. Now we’ve moved on. I, cozy in my truths, and you, sometimes agitated in your opinions of me…but we’re still going to sit here together, nose to nose, pondering each other.

This is gonna hurt.

I hope to take your breath away from time to time as you read about my experiences, my life, my rants and celebrations. I am going to lay it all out there for the world to see, not worried about ridicule. In my short life I have been wrong in my attitudes from time to time, have made bad decisions that have affected other lives, and still to this day I work hard at spiritual growth. The fact that when death knocked at my door I was lucky enough to tell him to come back later is reason enough to tell my story.

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But my story isn’t so much about me as it is about life. I am just a man with a megaphone.

Maybe I’ll even be telling your story. I am sure you will let me know if it moves and motivates you. After The Heroin Diaries I got hundreds of thousands of e-mails and letters telling me how readers’ lives had been changed for the better. I shared my story and maybe someone else’s life was spared too. (I am speaking of the families as well. ) If the photographs of human beauty and the words in this book show you the beauty in the downtrodden side of our souls, then I am happy. I have done my job. It’s never too late to wake up. It’s never too late for change. I, too, am changing.

I am writing this book partly in hopes that I will move somebody to pick up a camera, write a poem, pen a song, or take a shot at any other dream. I have always said, “If you can dream it, you can have it. ” In my heart, I’m wishing that these musings might motivate someone somewhere to go do great things.